Matthew 16:24
“Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.'”
My mindset the past few weeks has been “surrender.” It’s something I’ve always struggled with. Laying down every last bit of who I am, fully letting go of control, trusting in God regardless of the outcome, has terrified me in the past, but this season of life has stretched and pushed me to really embrace surrendering it all.
In the past, I would take my worries, fears, questions, relationships, etc. and lay them at the feet of Jesus. I’d force a weak smile to seemingly fool Jesus, the one who knows me more than I even know myself. Then, in my mind, when He wasn’t looking (like when He turned to reminisce with Moses or was discussing a very serious topic with His Heavenly Father) I’d quick snatch back up the exact thing I had set before Him. I can feel the fear rush through me just writing about it. I don’t know what it was, but this unspeakable fear always forced my untrusting hands to grab back at the things He was going to take such good care of. Then I’d turn and run clenching my worries, my relationships, my future in my arms. The thought would cross my mind; “oh, next Sunday I’ll try again.”
I knew deep down that He was fully sovereign. I knew at the core of my being how His way is better than mine. I mean, come on, He doesn’t fall off his throne, ever. He rules and reigns with power no one can fathom. He’s more than capable of holding my life in His hands.
Today, take time to truly surrender. Lie down your biggest fears, your longings and desires, right at the foot of the cross. When you surrender you can stand with open arms to truly and sincerely worship Jesus.